My daughters inspire me to get out of my comfort zone. You see I love wearing T-shirts, leggings and sometimes jeans and not really putting an effort into dressing up unless I feel like it’s a special occasion. But what I fail to realize at times is that every time I am blessed to see another day it is a special occasion. I have been in mom mode for so long, I have gotten lost in being lazy and comfortable.
We were in Oakland the day it really hit me (again) as my daughter, and I were walking to the bus stop. I immediately posted a video saying that my daughters inspire me to want to do and be better when it comes to my attire. To be more intentional about what I wear all of the time. As you look at the picture that is accompanied by this post you will see what she is wearing as opposed to me. Her attire was quite simple, but it made a huge statement in my opinion. I have tried this before and have failed miserably because it takes commitment, consistency and confidence in myself and my appearance. I also need to learn how to dress this body that I have now and make it look tasteful.
As I was eating my food discussing what I needed to do (get rid of at least 10 T-shirts when I got home) my daughter said to me, "yes you do mom because I swear you wear the same 5 shirts all the time." And then proceeds to describe the shirt I wear often that I bought last year when I saw Comedian Aries Spears. I am constantly buying shirts from comedians to show my support after their set. (Insert laugh here) As I am writing this piece, I am wearing a pair of jeans and Tupac t-shirt that I bought when I was in Los Angeles a few weeks ago. I even went so far as to put myself on T-shirt punishment for 2 months, basically until the 1st of the year. I am definitely on T-shirt overload.
I think the issue I am having is I am trying to make this change all at one time and it gives me anxiety. I didn't become this way overnight and so it will take a while for me to find my rhythm. It can be difficult to extend grace to me especially when I feel it's not important. The same way I extend grace to others I have to do the same for myself. I show them love and I must show myself that same love. Scripture says in 2 Corinthians 12:9, but he said to me "My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness."... I have to be patient with me in this transformation. I am willing to be uncomfortable with the change in the hopes that one day I will be very comfortable with the new me.
Are there some areas of your life where you need to show yourself grace? We are always a lot harder on ourselves than on others, in my opinion. Especially if you are someone like me who doesn't like change. When something works, I don't like to disrupt the flow because if it isn't broke, why fix it? Only you know the areas in your life that may need improvement. Make sure to take it one moment at a time and you will accomplish everything you want to.
Sending you love, light and positive vibes,
"Always remember to LIVE life to the fullest, to LAUGH at everything and to LOVE unconditionally!"