time to stop mourning!

I was having a conversation with my daughter the other day and she said, "mom it's time for you to stop mourning Grandma Soper, 9 years of mourning is too long." When she first said this to me, I didn't know how to react or respond and then I started to cry. I love and miss my grandma so much. She was such a pivotal part of my and my kid's lives. She was everything to me. When the world turned its back on me, she was right by my side. She was my protector, my provider, my confidant, my caregiver, my helper in times of trouble and my encouragement, she was everything to me.

My daughter said mom, you may not have been depressed in the physical sense like your mom, laying around with the windows and drapes closed, blacking out the house and not moving at all, but you have been a functional depressive. You shut people out or don't let them get close to you. You harden your heart for fear of being hurt. It's okay for you to grieve from time to time but to continue mourning you will be stuck forever.

The bible says, in Ecclesiastes chapter 3, that there is a time for everything. In verse 4 it says a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance. The bible teaches us in Psalm 30:5 that weeping may endure for a night, but joy comes in the morning. This suggests that mourning is not permanent and there is a stopping point. Yes, it is okay to acknowledge the pain of grief, but mourning is not the ultimate end. I know for a fact that my grandma, my mom or anyone else I have loved who has gone on to glory would want me to keep living and live life to the fullest. Grief isn't a weakness of mine, it just shows how much I cared about the people I have lost.

My daughter suggested that I needed to heal that part of my heart, so that I can make room for someone to enter. I needed to make space for the person who God has for me to walk into that role. Not necessarily a grandmother role, but someone who is sent to be my partner in life. That someone will be my provider, my protector, my confidant, my helper, my encourager and so much more. He will be everything that God has for me. I will never forget my grandma and she is everywhere and she guides me daily, but now it's time for me to allow someone special to take that place in my life, starting with my heart. I remind myself daily that I am healing, I am growing, and I am open to a love that is safe, kind and mutual.

Every last one of us deserves to be loved. I thank God in advance for the true connection to the one He has for me. I know that I am enough the way I am, and that any man would be blessed to have me, as I will be to have him. I truly believe that this is my year, and I am standing on that proclamation!

Maybe there is a part of your heart that needs healing so you too can move forward. One piece of advice I can offer for you and me is to stay in the present and stay grounded in the now. We can't change what happened and we don't know what is about to happen. I truly believe there is LOVE in the world for all of us! Whatever type of love you desire is for you to decide.

Sending you love, light and positive vibes,

Cassie K.

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"Always remember to LIVE life to the fullest, to LAUGH at everything and to LOVE unconditionally!"